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2009-11-27T08:33:00.003+08:00

FIrstly;

Have not been sleeping well lately

Hanging up late for chill out session

Chilling out is the best ever things that I've done

Shall stop clubbing for the time being

Saving money is still the best (for some reason too)

Have been stressing out recently (Some human will understand)

Thank for those fellow that have been helping me out all these while

Sorry for throwing attitude and tantrum for nothing

After all, I learnt somethings after that great fall

I won't trust human so easily ever again

Secondly;

I hope you guys'll appear soon

I won't blame yall for going MIA

I know yall will be viewing my blog now and then

Please have the guts to appear

Rmber this: Whats goes around, come around!

Lastly;

Beloved sissy, sorry for throwing two aeroplane in a week

I'll make up for you as a promise

Don't worry about me, I'm old enough to think

I know what I'm doing too (:

Thanks for always being there for me. LOVES!

SAW THIS SISSY? You know who you are! ((:

2009-10-04T07:06:00.000+08:00

Happy Mooncake' festival to everyone!
Had dinner with family and relatives
Left at around ten plus to meet up with sissy
Its just another crazy night with sissy and all
Thank sissy for getting my ic from colleague and get my membership done
After so much of grumbling, thank Kelvin for sponsoring half ((:
I think I owned many people a meal, shall clear it once I get my pay
Is time to save for my thailand trip too
Thank sissy for the mickey mp3, I love it to the max! WHOO~
It has been so long, since we met up for shopping
Our sat night is just mainly clubbing
I shall take leave soon to spend our sister' day again!
Saw it SISSY! You know who you are.
Shall update during my off day again, yawn!
Nights ♥

2009-09-27T11:15:00.001+08:00

After a hectic week, finally I'm out with sis
Down to town for retail therapy
Nothing caught our attention, so simply window shopping
Cineleisure shokudo for some snack
Aparted with sis and trained down to powerhouse
Tecktonic with beloved sis and friends
Enjoying my night with them
Slacked at prata shop at Thomson till morning
Its gonna be another hectic week again~
This routine repeat round and round
Working in that environment is killing me!
Everythings seem to be so unfair and unreasonable
Why must we always listen and unable to fight our own right?
I really dont get it! Why must you be such a big mouth?
Backstabbing humans again & again?
Always wanted to live happily, but it seem to be like...
Should I go back and study again?
But this time round, I'm gonna pay my own sch fee
Shall consider again. Study? Work? Nua?
One word to describe it all; SIAN!

P/S If only I'm rich and just be TAITAI for life!
P/S Let me dream on~

2009-09-05T05:19:00.002+08:00

Hi Readers, I'm back!

Currently was busy with stuffs

Many ups and downs are falling upon me

Trying my very best to overcome everythings on my own

I believe I'm able to make it thru

I'm sorry if I've made you angry/disappointed & worried!

Have been working out my life and hanging out with beloved sis during my off day!

Family gathering during cousin'rueben's 1st bday,

I believe there will be more family gathering coming up!

Will be changing myself into a new life, a great new start!

Shoo off all the bad lucks to the drain!

I'm here to announce that I'm single after so much suffering!

Say whatever you guys want to, I couldn't bother anymore

Backstab me as much as you want!

I'm happy leading this single life with all my friends supporting me

Alright, I shall stop here. Update soon! TAKECARE EVERYONE!

CIAOS. Night, smooches~

2009-08-08T05:20:00.002+08:00

Super worn out this few days
After continuing of four days of twelve hour shift
Finally I'm off, but I still have to wake up early later on
Was supposed to catch a movie with colleagues, SORRY
Gave it a miss cause someone owe me mcDonald breakfast
Went ahead to have my breakfast & went back home
Feeling super exhausted, leg super sour
OH MY OH MY!!
Sorry for the lack of update too
Was busy working, beside that my laptop charger is spoilt
Currently using my sis's laptop
Is time to get a new laptop, any recommendation?
Alright, shall update when I'm free
Got to wake up early, will be celebrating cousin reuben's bday

P/S Maybe it really teach me a lesson
P/S P/S I won't hate you but to thank you
P/S P/S P/S It shall remain this way as it goes
P/S P/S P/S P/S As long as you're happy with your life, I'll be happy too
TAKECARE !

2009-07-20T05:14:00.003+08:00

19th July
Met up with Beloved sis at PS
I know she miss me alot & I miss her alot
Thank for the cookies that you've gave me!
Was delicious! Bake some more & let me eat
HAHAHAHA ((:
Settle down at Starbuck Coffee & chit-chatted
We've many stories to tell each other! (:
Anyway, thank so much for all this while, being my side when I'm real down
Thou most of the time, I really did disappoint you,
But you know I didn't mean it! I'm Sorry !
Loveeyous MANY MANY! BUT YOU CHANGE LIAO LA!! LOL

18th July
Both sis and I were stress and we went to do mani&pedi
After working for a month, is time to pamper myself
Dark red for my feet nails and red for my nails
For sis, french pink for her nails, red for her feet nails
Was in hurry, so I went off first without waiting for my nails to be dry
Cabbed down to Thomson Plaza to meet up with Veron & Jiabao
It has been so long since I saw them & chilled-out with them
Went over to Little Part 1 cafe; located beside Thomson Plaza
Chit-chatted, drink our smoothies, apple crumbled with ice-cream
Thinking where to head next, cabbed over to Veron's boyf place
He drove us to Geylang for Teochew porridge
Next went over to ECP as Veron's boyf and friends wanna play billard
So the three of us continue with our story-telling (:
Jiabao went off half-way as she not feeling well, TAKECARE OF YOURSELF
After their billard session, went in to Resort Thai pub for drink
New experience in Thai pub thou I went Sabai Sabai before
I prefer Sabai Sabai more, shall go there again if anyone bringing me?
After all, did enjoyed myself with them (:
More plans coming up? Shall see both of you soon !
P/S Veron, send me those pic soon!

2009-07-17T05:07:00.000+08:00

Finally, I get to meet jacqueline after so long
Both of us are always busy with our own stuff
Sorry if I've neglected you, you should understand
Met her at bugis, first destination was Billy Bomber for lunch
Was delicious and since there's a one-for-one lunch offering,
We just went in without hesitation
Perhaps both of us were superb hungry
Dint took any pic of the food
Walked around as she wanted to get present for her husband
She got the present and I wrap it for her
Chit-chatted and rest our legs
Went desperate way with her, off to work
& she went back to celebrate her husband's bday
So sweet of her!! HAHAHAHA (:

2009-06-21T09:59:00.000+08:00

woke up at around three plus to wash up,
prepared and packed my stuffs, off i go.
family chalet at pasi ris :)) thank uncle for booking it
i did enjoy myself though i'm damn tiring
beloved sis & boyf came at ten plus to join us
chit-chatted & went to ehub for a walk
slacked at mCafe for drink & cakes
they left at six & i off to sleep
afterall, i did enjoy myself with all of them ((:

psps; working tonight ! YAWN ~

2009-06-20T06:43:00.000+08:00

working in a night life, will only leave out many outings.
least, i did manage my time to watch a movie after work
drag me to hell movie with colleagues
after months, finally i went to catch a movie, feel so excited !
HAHAHAHA :))
maybe that's the only way to get closer with them
so that work will be more fun and merrier ?
alright, after all, the movie wasn't that scary like what i thought
humans, if you've not watch it, please go and catch this movie before it end

2009-06-04T05:43:00.000+08:00

I dint mention that I got myself a new job right
Don't ask me where I'm working at,
Cause I hate working in that environment
Unfriendly colleagues, irritating humans & fake faces
No offence to some of you, I know some do concern for me,
And really took good care of me on behalf of them ((:
I miss out lots of outings with my family & girls
I'm trying to manage my time properly,
So that I'm able to be out with them.
And I do miss him badly too !
I hoped work will get better when time goes by
I want to earn more money to go holidays !
Anyone got any part-time job to intro me?
Seriously, I do need a break ! I'm feeling so sick & tired !

2009-05-31T22:55:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO NAUGHTY COUSIN`GLENN

his presents ((:

before decoration of the cake

after decoration, by us ((:

aunti, cousin`reuben, cousin`jojo & i

2009-05-31T08:17:00.004+08:00

Was so reluctant to go out as I'm super broke
But after some helped from Huiying,
I just went with her to her boyf's chalet
Before that, we both just like an aunties in fairprice
Bought some uncooked foods for the barbecue
Cabbed down to the chalet as it was super heavy
Saw many friends that got link to each other
Singapore was super small la ! Chit-chatted with all of them
Played direction and 5,10 with Huiying,
She was a pro okay! kept lose to her ):
They're super friendly, played game & drank so many drinks
They played game with forfeited & was super scary
Was paired up, GIRLS VS GUYS at first
Was kinda not right with me after drinking so much of diff pure nic with beer
Aftermath, was paired up with Zhiqiang
Lucky with the help from him, or not I think I'm dead drunk
HAHAHA ((: thank thank . You're the man of the day la!
Aftermath, some of them were drunk & fell asleep
Chit-chatted with Adrian & the rest outside, as I'm still awake
Played psp, listened to songs & went back to crib at six am
Huiying, don't think so much alright? I'm always here for you too !
*Adrian is a tecktonic dancer ! HAHAHA !*

*Thank to beloved JULIE RYKIEL LERYN for being my listening ears, LOVES
Three names but same person, HAHAHA*

2009-05-29T23:58:00.002+08:00

Had lunch with mum & bro at this nepali shop,
Went there once & the foods were yummylicious !
Aftermath, went to food fair at expo
I thought that there will be only food fair,
Dint expected that there's popular fair & john little fair too
HAHAHA ((: only went in to food fair & popular fair
Shall go to john little fair before it end, if only i got the mood to go?
Brought many tibits & crackers back to stock up,
Hope it can last for two weeks or more? LOL
It was packed with humans, banging here & there when on our way out
But it still worth it ((: Poor mum spent alot.
Trained back home after the long tiring day.
My legs are aching ! I think I'm old already ? LOL
Msned with some humans & they told me these:
"So surprising to see ya online on friday night. So good girl ?"
I'm good girl okay! Weekends seem to be like nothing to me
It just like a normal days like other days.

*Once again, I just can't stop thinking what she told me. SIGH*
* Tears flowed down day by day*

2009-05-25T19:44:00.001+08:00

I can't denied that her words dint affected me
Its seem like a never ending stories coming up
Its pushing hard against me
I hate it so much but I still have to accept the facts
But what can I do? Can't help but wait ):
Tears every nights before to bed
Tears just flowed continuously, SIGH
No one can understand me but myself
Issit a perfect time to leave it & don't bother anything?
I'm still wondering. GOODBYE ~
Shall update again `

2009-05-23T16:57:00.001+08:00

i hope all those textes i received this morning were just prank textes
i doesn't know how i'll react if all those textes were true
thank bitch for saying so much to me,
i won't believe a single shit you said unless you showed me evidence,
MIDDLE FINGER TO YOU !
i know what to do after all these, i will not let your words pull me down
i hoped i'll be back with my smiley and irritating look on my face !
I STRONGLY NEED SOME HAPPY PILLS
thank beloved sis & solleh bro for being there for me ((:

2009-05-21T23:49:00.001+08:00

met christine at bugis for retail therapy & catch up session
nothing caught my eyes, so bused down to marina square
settle down at mac & start chit-chatted with her
after she left, went to meet sis & her boyf at suntec city
walked around & went to library .
met mum, sis & bro at house downstair for my super late dinner
& back to crib ((:

2009-05-17T07:10:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 1st BIRTHDAY TO BABY'JORDAN
HAPPY ADVANCE BIRTHDAY TO XIANLANG & XIAOLONG

woke up super early as i need to pass back huiying some stuff
went to visit jolin as she just gave birth, is a babyboy ! congrat girl
aftermath, went down to yishun , was supposed to meet up christine,
but she was pretty late. next time, if you're going to be late pls inform me !
so went up to jacq's hse to celebrate her babyboy'jordan's 1st birthday
played with him first as i'm still early.
buffet set up at four thirty, ate and chit chatted with the rest ((:
cut cake session & photo taking . dint ate the cake as it was durian cake. STINK !
aftermath, headed down to somewhere near esplanade to chilled out till dawn ((:

2009-05-14T05:31:00.002+08:00

met up with my beloved sis & irritating bro at vivo city
thank sis for the goodies that you make, its delicious !
walked around as we need to get some gift for baby jordan
i fell in love with the clothes that we bought,
how i wish i'm still a small baby ((:
so envy, nowadays kids' clothings are so much nicer !
club @ powerhouse ! saw many familiar faces too .
sorry azmi&co, dint join y'all. i hope y'all did enjoy yourself
A BIG HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO AZMI !
i'm gonna hit the sack soon , blog while i'm waiting for my hair to dry
night & morning to everybody ! LOVES

2009-05-13T03:22:00.003+08:00

met up with huiying & zhiqiang at bugis
walked around iluma, it still the same, no new shops are open
headed to bugis junction for dinner, Aijisen !
thank zhiqiang for the treat ((:
aftermath, cine for movie; The Ramen Girl .
before movie, went to outdoor cafe to chilled.
chit-chatted with huiying most of the time ,
throw zhi qiang alone, HAHAHA ((:
sorry dude, i don't know what topic to talk to ya c(:
maybe the next meet out, we'll have more topic to talk about ? LOL
Huiying, shall we've steamboat & mahjong session at your place soon ?
lets plan more events okay ((:
i'm looking forward to baby jordan 1st birthday this sat !
jacq, i miss your son but not you ! HAHAHA ((:
& i hate joel for ordering that durian cake k ! LOL

2009-05-11T02:26:00.002+08:00

HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY to all MUMMIES !
dinner at din tai fung, it have been a long time since i went there
xiaolongbun; my all-time fav . i can't rmber what we ordered
thank aunti for the treat c(:
back home to change & headed down to changi airport with sis
so here i am, changi airport is a nicest place to chill
ps: HAPPY 21St BIRTHDAY JIABAO !

2009-05-07T12:31:00.002+08:00

its ladies night !
dinner at vivo city with huiying
catched up with her & she's still as lame as ever
met up with the rest & headed down to powerhouse
saw many familiar faces; hi^bye !
i think the songs over there are much nicer than other clubs !
afterall, it was an enjoyable night with all of them ((: LOVES

ps: liyun, when are we meeting ? i miss you muchie (:
thought i know you're stressing over your school work,
just relax, i believe you able to make it thru,
always rmber this; dont let others affect your studies !
many lucks to you ! see you soon ((:

psps: syaidah, hamizah, nikki &co .
shall we planned to meet up soon ?
sorry that always last min couldn't make it !
hope to see you girls soon ! misses *

2009-05-03T21:44:00.007+08:00

what's love mean?
i dont feel it anymore, i feel so numb over this r/s
i feel so useless, heart pain & irritated
am i really at fault over that issue ?
i feel i'm like a fool to all of them
the trust is still there, but something is missing
or am i thinking too much ?
everything seem to be still remain as a secret
i feel so so down right now !
we're still together but its seem to be like drifting apart
i hate to say goodbye & i'll never ever say that to him

can someone bring me to some places with these merry go round ?
reminiscent again ): i miss spending all the special days with him .
this year wasn't a good year for me, sigh
i'm feeling super terrible ):

MANY LUCKS TO SIS & BRO FOR EXAM ((:

2009-05-01T13:48:00.001+08:00

this is the worst sickness that i got after years,
after falling ill for three days, went to the private clinic for checkup ,
but was failed to be checked, trans to polyclinic for another checkup,
doc doesn't know what medicine to give me so i'm trans to ttsh.
went into the emergency ward for further observation .
took urine test, blood test & x-ray for hours.
having four packet of glucose drip too .
was discharged at midnight, i'm so lucky to have my mum to be with me.
but i still doesn't feel well after all these, cab home and have my meal .
went to cdc for further observation the next day & follow on .
been ill for a week & staying at home like a patient.
pig liver and rice for my meal , due to low blood .
FINALLY, i'm discharge from cdc after a week & today is the last checkup !
I'M RECOVERING ! YAYNESS ((:

so to courage myself from recovering ,
went out in the night to meet kakak & abg .
it've been week since we went out together.
anyway, thank for visiting me when i'm ill, bringing dora for me & minniemouse sticker .
went to watch 17again(zac efron is my boyf! HAHAHAHA) & we did some retail therapy too
after watching our movie, cabbed down to mustafa .
shopped around and they brought groceries back home

2009-04-24T17:31:00.000+08:00

its a visiting day, yet i dint attend it ,
i'm still ill and resting at home .
and we were quarreling over some issue during the last visit.
its dont seem to be like going on smoothly,
its still rocking verbally,
i'm so afraid of the darkness,
its seem to be like everything is ending !
i'm sorry for making a big fuss over it , i hope everything will be fine by next visit .
I MISS YOU VERY MUCH !

2009-04-19T20:25:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM !
thought i'm always the one making you worry for me,
the most rebellious among the siblings ,
the most irritating arse in the house,
you still dote on me ! LOVE YOU ((:
thought its your birthday and i'm ill at home ,
you took fully care of me & asked whether i'm alright every hours ,
asked whether i'm hungry & etc .
THANK YOU MUM ! I LOVE YOU MUCHIE ((:
I HOPED YOU DID ENJOY YOUR MEAL WITH ALL OF THEM !

2009-03-31T07:56:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BELATED 20th BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF
sound so old, but i've to accept the fact ((:
first of all; thank to those who wishes me ,
thought this year wishes/presents were not as many as last year .
its okay, since i doesn't have the mood to celebrate it.
the clock strick twelve, my tears flowed down continuously,
she'll know what had happen. think back what i've done,
i felt kinda guilty to him, my parents & friends
behaving just like a small kid to them
20 years in my life; all i do is play, slack & misbehaving.
in rs, i should start to buck up myself, stop behaving like a bitch
all i know that i still love him as much as before ((:
& i'm still waiting for him to release .
back to topic, thanks lang & jacqueline for the cake,
esp jacqueline, thank for your company for those few days,
treating me good foods, accompanying me wherever i go. LOVES
not forgetting my kakak syg & abg,
thank for tolerating all my nonsense, attitude & tantrum these few days too,
wasn't in a right mode and mood, SORRY ~
once again, thank everybody for their wishes & gifts ((:

-JORDAN; my beloved ((:
this small little boy is not my son ,
dont mistaken k , checkcheckcheck .
he's my non-stop moving GODSON , cute right ?

three more lao su to my collection ((:

back home from my "chalet" & i saw these !
the disney balloon & crystal jade cake ,
both were for me , i dint went back to cut the cake .
SORRY EVERYBODY IN THE HOUSE )':

ps: HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO AUNTI YUENYEE

ps ps: ZAIDI, I MISSYOU DEARLY ((:

out of a sudden, i start to love this old song,
the lyric really suit how i feel, SIGH )':

2009-03-23T01:13:00.003+08:00

its has already been months, we're doing all our things separately.
having all our special dates all by ourselves & spending the night alone
i know that i should be used to it by now,
but it really hard on me not to think of you & missing you )):
twice a month is really way too little
receiving one letter from you is just once in three months ?
praying that everything will be well for you instead of sour
praying hard that you'll behave yourself too
i hoped that time really flies fast so that i'm able to see ya
& anyway, its your day today, yet i'm unable to celebrate with you
my mood swing terribly, wanting to see you so much & celebrate it with you
SIGH )': HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU ! IMY & ILY .

2009-03-19T05:50:00.002+08:00

a small birthday countdown for kakak syg at rebel
bought her a sexy night cloth & a g-string !
(she gonna kill me when she see this) she wear sure SEXY WANT LOH .
HAHAHAHA ((: met her & abg at town before heading down .
went to walk around fep & bused down .
bought her a slice of oreo chessecake too ,
cause the cake that i wanted to order unable to get it today. SORRY )):
chit-chatted at mac before heading in , i feel that im so dirty to talk abt those things.
they understand what i mean. i guess they use to it alrdy ?
i hoped she did enjoyed herself & last of all;
A HAPPY HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY TO YOU . LOVES ((:

4more days to his bday, 5more days to our 6th month & 11more days to my bday
BIG BIG BIG SIGH )':

2009-03-09T07:21:00.004+08:00

terrible nightmare make me dont feel like sleeping .
shoo off those nightmare, i really really hate it ):
i'm so afraid it might happen in reality .
will it happen to me ? SIGH .
after all , i felt guilty after doing those things.
i miss HIM pretty pretty much ! can he be here now ?

met up with jacqueline after so long ,
i miss her son more than her , dont jealous !
met her at a 24hour HANS located at old upper thomson rd ,
is a nice place to chill out , but too bad no socket for lappy.
a good time to catch up everythings & calm her down too ):
had our supper too . im gonna be fat if i continue to have supper .
its time to go on diet . i ate alot today !
lunch - ramily burger, cup corn, nyonya food .
dinner - noodle. supper - grilled fish meal .
i'm so bloated till now, i keep feel like vomiting ,
think due to the overdose of foods ? MYGOD !

p/s - i hope things will goes smoothly for my two sisters & myself !
i hope my interview later on will be a successful one ((:
i'm gonna hit the sack soon , or else i wont be awake for any job interview .
lucks to myself & the two of them (: nights&morning (:(:(:

2009-03-06T03:06:00.001+08:00

have been slacking at forum mac recently,
is a nice & quiet place to do your things k !
& right now i need a job, anyone ?
i hate to be out of job; no income = no good life .
anyone got any good jobs to intro ? please .. ((:
i miss my boyf , when am i able to get to see him ?

one day of this week , after slacking at forum mac,
was pretty tired for the three of us ,
yelling & screaming at people who snatch our cab ,
came a cab & abg was asking the cab driver this:
abg: can use NETS ?
cabdriver: NO .
abg: can use CASH ?
i was wondering what is the cab driver's reaction ?
three of us were laughing away like nobody's business .

many of them are getting marry. lucks to them ((:
one invitation from leeyana , congrats girl .
may your life be a blissful one ahead ! LOVES .
jacq & siti have been asking me:
when am i getting marry ?
when can they recieve invitation from me ? they're waiting ~
HAHAHAHA . gimme another 5years time ?
im not in a hurry to get marry , i've not enjoy my life fully ((:

2009-03-01T22:53:00.006+08:00

KATHERINE - THIS POST IS SPECIALLY FOR YOU

YOU SUCK , STOP USING MY MSN TO TALK TO PPLE & GIVE PPLE MY NUMBER !! YOU THINK IS FUN ISSIT ? JUST TRY ME, I'M GONNA SEE HOW YOU GONNA TOLERATE IT. F*OFF !!

1 Mar 09, 23:03
katherine: So fun using your msn and talk to your guys friends, happy entertain them when they call you. Enjoy it.
1 Mar 09, 23:04
katherine: Hahahahaha. Since you got no friends with ya right now, they can entertain you. Your bf will be very pissed once he know it. Hahahaha
1 Mar 09, 23:05
katherine: So fun breaking up your relationship. You might think is childish but I think is cool. Enjoy ya. No need to complain to Edison, cause i bet he'll help me in stead.

REPLY TO YOU :
AT LEAST YOU USE YOUR NAME TO TAG & ADMIT THAT YOU USE MY MSN TO TALK TO MY FRIENDS !! continue doing all these rubbish, we shall see who is the smart one ? pretend me in my msn , cool right ? i know . continue giving others' my number & act as if you're me talking to them k ? break up my rs ? why not you break your own rs first then break up mine ? & you want me to forgive you , yet you're doing all these, continue k ? I'LL FORGIVE YOU FOR SURE !! stop acting as if you're one taitai in edison's place . who you think you are ? you're only his girlf & not his wife k ? or should i say YOU'RE JUST A PRISONER WHO ARE ON BAIL ? & it doesnt matter whether who edison side, cause i couldnt bother at all . he's nothing to me or should i say he's a useless guy ? you think you're cool ? i think you're worst than any animals in the zoo !! making a nuisance in my tagboard, end up want to ask edison to call me & ask for forigveness , eh HELLO , wipe your own butt after you shit & not asking other to help ya. edison, im so sad to say these , is she your maid in your hse ? why would you want a girl like her to be your girlf ? having her as your girlf, isnt embarrassing ? doing all these childish act ! thank god , im lucky to be out of her & your world .

P/S: ANYONE TALK TO YA FROM 11AM TO 10.30PM, IT NOT ME . THAT BITCH HACK MY ACCT !

2009-02-26T14:55:00.006+08:00

televisit him was cancel ,

due to some communication breakdown between she & i.

seriously, im utterly disappointed with what she has done.

blame myself for not understanding her language too .

to her - HATE !

hate is a strong word, but i really really really dont like you.

im unable to forgive you this time round,

or should i say i dont know how to forgive you? SORRY

those type of pathetic feeling is back again )':

should i just cry it out or just bottle up my feeling?

i miss him superbly much, anyone understand? SIGH !!

headed down to see doctor, due to the rashes,

hasn't been cure since weeks & the itchyness is killing me too .

hopefully the medicine will cure the rashes away. byebye rashes ~

i wont be able to go for any drinking session & any hot or aircondition places .

all these may cause the skin to be dry & rashes will be back .

so where can i go right now ?

HOME is the only place for temporarily till it cure !

2009-02-20T23:26:00.002+08:00

had a small gathering with relatives , cousins & family .
location @ my aunt's workplace the ktv lounge .
having so much fun with them; singing , pool, cam-whoring & eating .
was supposed to give my aunt a surprise ,
but end up she saw the cake that we giving her .
not fun & one surprise gone liao loh!!
repeating the birthday song non-stop for sometimes,
we on diff language too; malay , chinese & english .
after cut cake session, gave her a mango top .
she was kinda shocked, cause this is the first time we gave her present .
HAHAHAHA ((:
last of all , HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO AUNTI ANNIE .

i realise that i dint took any pic with esther ,
nevermind, there will be much more chances to go! ((:

2009-02-15T07:30:00.002+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY TO ALL ATTACHED & SINGLE.
i hope you people did enjoy yourself yea ?
i did enjoy myself even boyf weren't here to celebrate with me,
i do have my sisters & brothers by my side,
so sweet & nice of them ((: LOVES
thank ben&co for the advance valentine's celebration,
thank for all the treat and cooking at seoul garden!
(they keep remind me to tell boyf to thank them, they got skin thick ah?)
thank kakak & abg for asking me out on valentine's day,
they're so sweet to celebrate it with me. XIEXIENIMEN~
down to jurong point with kakak for our cake decoration,
headed down to ecp after that, yes, its my idea.
& kak have spend lots of money on catching stitch, brought home total of seven?
thank kak for the roses , heart-shape biscuit & mickey&minnie mouse.
most important is we spend our sister's day tgth,
and spend the dayout with me thou you've boyf,
didnt throw me alone to celebrate by myself.
thank for those who gave me some surprise present ((:
A BIG THANKS TO EVERY0NE , ♥
last of all, HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY TO MY BELOVED BOYF (:

2009-02-11T04:46:00.006+08:00

sometimes i do really hate my family members & friends,
i hate their naggings, i hate the way they say me,
i hate the way they keep repeating their questions,
and whatever things i do, doesnt make them feel good too,
i just hope everythings will goes well soon )):
just give me some times & i'll change to become better.
i do really appreciate what M have done, thank so much dude !
(dont say i never mention you in my post k!)

i start to tears every now & then,
every night before i close my eyes to sleep,
every times i see sweet couples on the street;
it just remind me of you )):
crying secretly, hiding all my tears to myself.
YES, I ADMIT! I MISS HIM TOO MUCH!
BUT WHAT CAN I DO ?
ALL I NEED IS TO WAIT, WAIT & WAIT.

Valentine's day is round the corner.
anyone wanna date me out on my boyf's behalf ?
anyone wanna buy me sunflower on my boyf's behalf?
anyone wanna buy me a large minnie mouse on my boyf's behalf?
HAHAHAHAHA ((:

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2009-02-06T23:33:00.001+08:00

last minute decision to JB .
headed down with sis, bro, mum & aunt.
had our late lunch at this Old Town White Coffee once we reached.
the coffee taste is much nicer than starbuck or coffee bean coffee .
i love their coffee & laksa , the laksa is so much diff from spore.
at least now i taste something different from spore ((:
retail&food therapy make me so enjoyable .
i love it , anyone wanna bring me out ?
i want to release all my sadness & stress,
have been feeling so damn down recently,
i got my reasons but i wont tell you why!
sorry kakak , i give it a miss for the celebration .

2009-02-02T02:18:00.003+08:00

7TH DAY OF CNY @ 2nd uncle's place

headed down to second uncle's for visiting .
ate our lunch & start our cam-whoring ,
this is what my cousins, relatives, siblings love to do ((:
chit-chat & start our gambling .
CNY is like eating & gamble , that's all .
& i've gain totally 4kg just this 7 days of cny ,
god ! i've to go on diet soon )):
swimming pls , anyone ?
cabbed home in the evening , had my dinner .
& start gamble again , told yall , cny is just gambling & eating .

i'm feeling much better after crying out ,

i know i'm aint strong ,

i'm missing him much .

i need him much at this moment too ,

but its impossible )):

2009-02-01T01:22:00.005+08:00

rejected three events today;
first- ben's place for steamboat,
but he dint tell me that my cousin will be going ,
so i rejected , sorry ben ! next year k ?

second- zouk with huiying&co , sorry babe , another day k ?

third- steamboat with katherine&co,
katherine, you should understand . sorry yall ~
i'll make up a day for you all ((:

DEEPLY APOLOGISE TO ALL INVITATIONS !
reason = i'm lazy to get my arse out of the hse &
i'm really down & seriously no mood ,
so from prevent myself to spoilt you guys' mood ,
i shall not go & stay home . SORRY !
i'll make up for you all , PROMISE ~

had a so-called reunion dinner again with relatives ,
aunti cooked & bought crab and yu sheng for dinner too .
nice dinner with them , they really make my day .
feeling slightly better after seeing their laughter & everythings .
gambling after dinner , won three bucks only ((:
sis decided to go airport for self-revision ,
accompany her , so am at airport right now .
later we're heading back to aunti's place for visiting .
good luck to myself for not sleeping again .

2009-01-31T17:06:00.005+08:00

MOOD : CONFUSION

The heart start to drift apart,

Is it only me or you're involving too ?

It start to become shaky ,

Its seem to be like collapsing soon.

Am i the only one suffering ?

Or am i thinking too much ?

Everythings seem to be so close yet so far !

I HATE THIS PART `

Or should i say I HATE MYSELF ?

MY MIND START TO GO NA NA NA ~

*
*

But no matter what ,

I still will hold onto my words & promises to him !

2009-01-29T02:39:00.006+08:00

CNY DAY 3- retail therapy

was supposedly to meet up with cousin ,
but aunti was way lazy to get out of the hse ,
so everything was cancel , but sis & i still went out .
uncle drove us down to bugis as he's going to simlim tower ,
the place was quite today as many shops are still having their holis .
so headed down to fep , there was even quiter ,
dont really have the mood to shop too , bought a pair of sandal only.
headed down to bishan for our movie session ,
watched the wedding game , rated 3.5/5 .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO COUSIN`JOJO !
MAY GOD BLESS YOU & ALL YOUR WISHES COME TRUE ((:

my throat & flu is killing me ,
i think im gonna fall sick very soon ,
any sweetie wanna get me herbal tea ? HAHAHA
MY PRINCESS , PLEASE GET WELL SOON &
WE CAN START OUR WAR WITH THEM ((:

BOYF; IMY&ILY

two more days & i'm gonna visit ya ((:

2009-01-27T23:06:00.001+08:00

DAY 2 @ big uncle's hse

this year cny day two was diff ,
visiting at big uncle's rather than second uncle's .
was enjoying collecting red packets & gambling .

before heading out , took pic with bro ((:

see his place got many cny tibits .

lunch was pizzahut & kfc , dinner was zhi chao ((:

CAM-WHORING SESSION , with cousins, aunties, uncles & siblings (:

2009-01-26T22:17:00.000+08:00

REUNION DINNER & CNY DAY 1

both days were located at home , relatives & cousins came .
dint dressed up for these two days(lazy la!!!) ,
so those pictures that have me , is damn ugly .
reunion dinner was as usual , STEAMBOAT !
cny day 1 was home-cooked food . yummylicious .
both days were the same as every year .
but there's some diff with the foods ((:
celebrate cousin`jojo's bday in advance .
she bought cupcake rather than cake for us .
gambling & collecting red-packets as usual .
this year , my luck wasn't that good ~
HAPPY NIU YEAR TO ALL MY BELOVEDS&FRIENDS
GONG XI FA CAI TO EVERYBODY !

2009-01-24T08:03:00.000+08:00

it's gonna be a very long post with wordy , no pic; sorry !
met up with princess at our usual place to get smth ,
but that stupid guy let us wait&wait ,
rushed him for it & flew back to tpy ,
& thank god , its still open , but the queue was f.long ):
bused down to vivo city & the whole journey was so long .
had our retail therapy for cny clothes ,
but none of the clothes caught mye eyes .
dined in at secret recipe & i'm one hour late for work ,
or should i say; i'm paid for slacking & wasting time @ work ?
somehow i start to hate the company & the environment where i'm located ,
especially i hate seeing that fat manager & that fat gay .
mood totally changed after having some argument with that gay .
i couldnt stand pple saying my parent & i seriously
dont mind you saying me than pulling my parent into the story.
WHAT A SORE LOSER ? FOFF GAY !
EH HELLO , I'M NOT EASILY GET BULLY OKAY,
IT'S JUST FOR YOUR OWN INFORMATION,
I'LL DEFINITELY FIGHT FOR MY RIGHT ,
YOU'VE JUST AIM THE WRONG TARGET !!!
& YOU'RE F.LUCKY THAT I DINT SPOUT A SINGLE VULGARITIES AT YOU !
should i still continue with it or simply foff from the company ?
alright, i shall get some rest soon or else i couldnt be awake for praying session ,
& i'm going to meet up with princess & her boyf . peni & mani will be done later too .

i'm so glad to hear some good news ,
my lil' sweet is on bail !
sweet , please be good girl okay ,
so that your sentencing will be much more lighten ,
Edison will always be your angel to save you ,
please dont disappoint us especially Edison kkk ?
sweet , IMY so much ~

i'm still holding on to my words ,
& prove to you that whatever pple say is wrong .
proudly to announce that i'm still waiting for him ((:
twentyfourzeroninezeroeight
ZAIDI; IMY & ILY ♥♥♥

{for some pple's information;
please mind your own business ,
stop spouting nonsense to him when he's inside ,
come to my face & tell me if i did anything wrong behind him ,
& not anyhow spouting nonsense to him ,
i just simply cant stand your action by breaking pple's r/s . CHILDISH !
dont forget: whats goes around , come around}

some are quite true of me (:
ARIES - The Daredevil
Energetic. Adventurous and spontaneous. Confident and enthusiastic. Fun. Loves a challenge... EXTREMELY impatient. Sometimes selfish. Short fuse. (Easily angered.) Lively, passionate, and sharp wit. Outgoing. Lose interest quickly - easily bored. Egotistical. Courageous and assertive. Tends to be physical and athletic.

p/s: people say jealousy is a sign of love, issit true ?

2009-01-18T11:25:00.003+08:00

grandpa , sis & i ((:

sis; your eyes dropping out soon :D

out with sis , kak & abg .
headed down to geylang as sis wanna sell her phone ,
but the price they offer wasn't sis's expectation ,
hopped to golden mile , the shop closed.
dined at this thai shop , TOM YUM SOUP; my all-time fav !
cabbed home after that (:
love my two little cousins; reuben & glenn :P

6 more days to our 4th month .
darl, ILY & IMU. mwark ~

2009-01-08T23:55:00.001+08:00

out with my two adeks .

brought them to bishan j8 as bro wanna get his bag ,

sis & i are just his accomplish ((:

walked around , eat & homesweethome .

tmr gonna be another working day ,

how sad issit , wont be working the same outlet as kakak !

please dont drink okay , i'll be there after i knock off . JIAYOU `

IMY&ILY * ZAIDI BIN ABDUL JALIL

YOU LIFT ME UP * 24o9o8

2009-01-07T02:39:00.004+08:00

5jan'09
its always so fun to be out with kakak .
disturbing each other like nobody business ((:
headed down to raffles place for some reason .
dined in sakae sushi , was superb hungry ,
ate 10plates each , we indeed a big eater ? :D
headed down to fep then to prata shop to meet abang
& homesweethome ((:

6jan'09
* headed down to cheenatown to get kak's boots
* unfortunately , none of the boots was nice
* down to fep , bought the one that she've tried .
* ps starhub shop to make a complain on my phoneline
* dined at this shop , food was yummy-licious ,
* it worth the price & its come with a big portion .
* prata house to meet abang & homesweethome ((:

you'll always be a part of me
i'm a part of you indefinitely
time can't erase a feeling this strong
you're never gonna shake me
oh darling cause you'll always be my baby
ILY & IT'LL BE ONLY YOU <3

2009-01-03T00:34:00.002+08:00

hello everyone ((:
surprise to see me online & blogging at this timing ?
time check is 12.34am & im at home right now on a fri night .
alright, its always bored not to have boyf with me ,
but its okay , once he's out , hahaha ((: things will be diff .
but im blessed to have kakak & abang with me when i need them .
later gonna be another long day for me .
gonna hit the sack real soon . night everyone :D

event for today :
- met up with kakak , headed down to city plaza to find her boots .
- went to have waffle buffet at sing post . 1 out of 5 .
- headed down to tampines to find abang
- trained down to bugis; jalanjalan
- back to thomson for dinner
- homesweethome (:

IMY; ZAIDI BIN ABDUL JALIL

2009-01-01T19:05:00.002+08:00

GOODBYE 2008
WELCOME 2009
its another brand new year .
SEE , times flies fast .
hope you guys did enjoy your last 2oo8 & welcome a 2oo9 .
wishing everyone a happy & blessed new year . CHEERS ((:

RESOLUTION FOR 2oo9

- SLIM DOWN AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE
- work harder ((:
- earn more money
- be a better kakak & daughter
- be a good girlfriend of his's
- he behave himself in there
- trouble-free & less stress
- more shopping & better life
- more oversea trip
- be a better adek of kakak&abang ((:
- be a better friends/sisters of them ?
- less attitude towards everyone

2008-12-28T22:33:00.001+08:00

after so long of promising sis that i'll bring her to zoo ,
finally we went today with jiabao , her friend , kakak & abg .
start the walk from 11am to 2pm ?
was sweating like hell , whole body was sticky .
cab back as the weather is f.hot , went to tpy to meet up with aunti ,
as sis wanna change phone , but unfortunately , there's no stock at some of the shop .
after much hesitation , she wanna buy it but aunti was in hurry to go off ((:
had lunch at this ba ku tei shop with sis & aunti too . yummy-licious .
alright , shall let the pic do the talking , enjoy (:

2008-12-25T19:00:00.001+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL .
this year is a little different for family gathering ,
it held at my third uncle's place; celebrating his bday & christmas .
its so nice to be born out on special occasion;
double happiness & double presents .
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THIRD UNCLE ((:
shall let the pictures do the talking ,
i'm way too lazy to blog out everythings .
last of all ; thank adek&kakak for the expensive christmas pressie

some overdue pics that we took when we were bored at home ((:

overdue pictures when we're out,

SISTERLOVE;;;

2008-12-25T06:13:00.004+08:00

its just another tiring day after work ,
event , events and more events will be coming up .
i'm waiting for this day to come ((: HAHAHA .
this is my first time working & countdown at the same time ,
its so much different and fun ,
but if only boyf was here to be with me ,
it'll be even better , but ... SIGH ):
alright , thanks babes and guys for all the wishes ,
i got no time to reply yall , was busy working , so pls forgive me (:
MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL ~ HOPE YOU GUYS DID ENJOY YOURSELVES !

*ZAIDI BIN ABDUL JALIL; IMY&ILY

i'm still waiting ~*

2008-12-24T00:00:00.000+08:00

I, I don't know why I miss you so much
Yeah I, I don't know why I still feel your touch
You, you left me feeling high and dry
With nothing, nothing but the question why

*
*

it another one month had passed ,
its our third month ,
but its turn out to be like so close yet so far ,
we got no one to blame but blame ourself for taking these path being tgth .
i dont demand much from you ,
i just prayed hard that you'll behave & takecare of urself ((:
MY BELOVED; ILY & IMU *
*

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2008-12-21T08:45:00.001+08:00

events of the day ;
1` late afternoon , bugis flea market with sis .
2` taka to get things done for her friend .
3` walked around & headed down to heeren .
4` walked in to a dessert shop & settle down our dinner over there .
5` apart from her as i'm working .
6` worked with few pretty babes , they're really pretty ((:
7` slacked & chit-chat while working , waiting for the time to pass .
8` phew ~ four hours over , changed & headed down to babyface to look for jacqueline .
9` drank a few glasses , cut-cake session & went off .
10` last of all , HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MATTHEW !

sesame ice snow flake

strawberry ice snow flake

some decoration of christmas at town which sis took it;

SIS & I

another reflection of me & sis

candid shot ~

in his sch-uniform ((: smart la !
DARLING,IMY&ILY ~
the LOVE that you gave me is UNFORGETTABLE !

2008-12-19T20:55:00.002+08:00

woke up early to have kfc breakfast with mum , sis & bro .
it've been so long since i woke up so early .
walked around , buy some stuffs & got back home .
had a haircut and rebond my hair too (:
thank sis for lending me , thankq .
which mean my whole hair is so short right now ,
it looked superb fugly .
wonder what boyf will say after he seen it ? HAHAHAHA ):
he've been in there for one month alrdy ,
seventeen more months to go & he'll be out .
i'm missing him more & more , i'm waiting for his next visit & his letter .
more & more events are coming up .
but i'm always half dead when i'm working half-way thru ,
i know i'm not a good drinker ,
& thank to kak & abang for waiting for me to end work most of the time .
okays , have been talking to shiyun on the phone recently ,
i know how you feel & i know your situation ,
dont think so much k ? we able to overcome everythings tgth .
just prayed hard that both our boyf will behave theirself in there .
takecare of yourself too (: see you around .
alright, it's time to get prepare & off to work , or i'm gonna be late .

2008-12-13T12:53:00.000+08:00

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2008-12-10T16:44:00.004+08:00

when am i able to hold your hand again ?
when am i able to go out with ya again ?
when am i able to do everythings tgth with ya again ?
its just another seventeen more months to go .
its a changelling task for me .
i hope im able to overcome all these .
i miss him terribly much ):
but im outhere to wait for ya to be out .
ILY & IMU ♥ ZAIDI BIN ABDUL JALIL

2008-12-07T08:37:00.002+08:00

finally i meet up with yuyul ,
always busy with our own stuff and never get to meet up with each other .
met up with each other @ bugis ,
ate our dinner and off to buy cake; as she say this whole month is her bday !
HAHAHAHA . celebrated for her belated birthday .
i hope she did enjoyed herself .
SAYANG , dont feel upset , i know how you feel ,
we're on the same situation right now ,
never ever give up & be patient k ?
i'll always be there for you & be your listener .
takecare of yourself & thank for brighten up my day too (:

SAYANG ; HAPPY BELATED 19TH BIRTHDAY !

HUGS * SAYANG ♥

CHEERS ! LETS CLEAR AWAY ALL OUR SADNESS TGTH .

2008-12-01T01:07:00.003+08:00

out of a sudden , i'm feeling so down . SIGH ):
I MISS HIM SUPERBLY MUCH
& i'm going to visit him in ten days time
): ): ):

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

2008-11-27T00:35:00.004+08:00

i'm trying my best not to shed anymore tears ,
it just couldn't stop when i'm reading thru all the textes he send ,
seeing thru all the pics we took , tears just automatically flow down ,
i'm missing him more & more as days pass by ):
when can i able to visit him ? many things running thru my brain .
i'm thinking of him wherever i go too .
but i'm lucky to have my little sis & bro when i need someone to be with me .
they're the best companion i have ,
even we might quarrel , fight , shout at each others at times ,
but our heart still love each others .
thank mum for giving me these two little ones .
i love them and him (:

ZAIDI; imissyou lots . mwark *

SISTERLOVE *

BROTHERSISTERLOVE *

2008-11-25T00:31:00.002+08:00

): ): ):
i miss him , i miss him , i miss him ):
so near yet so far ):

2008-11-19T23:47:00.001+08:00

DARLING , imissyou so much ,

thought you're just inside for half a day .

its so difficult to live without you .

please behave & takecare of yourself inside .

i'll wait for you to be out , don't worry love .

iloveyou & imissyou muchie !

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY LITTLE BRO .
SORRY THAT I'M UNABLE TO CELEBRATE YOUR BDAY ,
DUE TO NOT FEELING WELL !
I HOPED YOU DID ENJOY YOURSELF AND FELT HAPPY TO WHAT MUM GAVE YA .
LASTLY , I STILL WANNA WISH YA A HAPPY HAPPY 12TH BIRTHDAY ((:

2008-11-16T14:06:00.005+08:00

it has been so long since both of us took pic & go out tgth .
maybe i'm way to busy and have neglected her . haha (:
even at home , we talked to each other less than five sentences a day ,
can you imagine it ? staying in the same hse yet talk to each other so less ?
and as for my little bro , we dont talk much , maybe due to our age gap ?
but he's a great accompanion and he's my fat little bro .
afterall , i do love the both of them ,
many loves to my little sis and bro !

her face look like as if i snatch the biscuit from her ,
and i looked superb happy ! HAHAHA (:

we look so alike ?

she wanna try some too ,
but i'm way to selfish and finish by myself . LOL (:

me and my little fat bro (:

2008-11-09T06:05:00.002+08:00

boyf was so sweet to fetch me from home before heading out ,
and sending me home before he go back . loves*
met up with boyf and headed down to cine as he meeting zack&co .
as usual , saw many familiar faces , hi and bye ! haha .
slacked at taka park with them , followed up azzim and yuyul&co came .
apart with them and headed down to cuppage to meet up with kakak syg & abang .
boyf went back first and i continue the trip with the both of them .
headed down to phuture , it has been so long since we last club .
and credits to boyf who let me club without him around .

2008-11-04T20:56:00.003+08:00

out with boyf is my daily routine recently .
gonna spend more time with him ,
as the day is getting nearer and nearer .
*only my close ones will understand .
prayed hard that nothing gonna happen (:
many loves & credits to boyf .
thank for all your efforts you've put it into this r/s . mwark

watched with boyf .
rated ; two out of five popcorns .
must really focus on the storyline than you'll understand .
afterall , wasn't a nice movie at all .

watched with kakak syg and abang .
rated; three.five out of five popcorns .

KAKAK SYG !!
rmber that i'm always here for you no matter what happen .
dont forget that i promise not to mia , so do you k ?
stay strong and i'm your listening ear too (:
count on me alright , many loves to you !

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO LIYUN AND GWEN SIS .
ENJOY YOURSELF TO THE FULLEST .
MISSES AND LOVES * <,333

2008-10-26T23:00:00.000+08:00

my mind have set , i've done what i should do .
i'm sorry to the innocent one .
i couldn't help but i believe you're living peacefully right now .
i hoped i won't regret what i've done ,
thought i've hide my tears behind everyone, my heart still hurt badly .
alright , nobody understand how i feel at all ,
cause none of them were there at that moment , when i need them so much .
;
;
sometimes , i wondering who are my true friends ?
have been thru so many things , yet none of the things are going my way .
people tend to say things and do things differently too .
ACTION SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS LA DEY !
you should know who you are;
if you doesn't know , that's your prob too .
if my post have offended you , than i'm sorry .
;
;
i miss my boyfriend badly ,
how i wish he's there when i need him so much ?
i believe nothing gonna happen to ya ,
please behave yourself . many loves; mwark (:

2008-10-24T00:00:00.004+08:00

happy happy one month to my beloved boyfriend .
many hearts and credits to you (:

2008-10-05T10:31:00.004+08:00

DARLINGLOVE ;
the days are getting nearer and nearer ,
how i wish time will stop right now ?
so that i'm able to be with ya days and nights (:
everythings will be like so near yet so far after these few days .
i hope what you've promised me , it'll come true ?
darling , i'll be outhere waiting for you . many loves <,333

2008-10-02T10:19:00.000+08:00

some overdue pic ;

friend - close friend - laling and become KAKAK SYG
kakak syg , thank for always being there for me ,
thought at times , i throw attitude at ya , you're still giving in to me .
promised we're not going to leave each other alright ?
i hoped all these will remain , as close as ever .
many credits and loves to you <,333

KORKOR ;
always nag at me non-stop , giving me advises and helping me out ,
thank you so much . sorry for the past few days , showing attitude at you ,
hoped you understand (: sorry to make you angry at times too .

2008-10-01T10:07:00.002+08:00

HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY TO MY LITTLE COUSINS , SIS AND BRO .
SELMAT HARI RAYA TO ALL MY MUSLIM FRIENDS AND BOYFRIEND .

at the same time ,
HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY TO MY BELOVED SIS ; MELISA .
hoped you like what i've ordered for ya , the cake and cupcake (:
one year older , i hope you'll be more tong shi okay ?
stay pretty and i wish you pass your N level too !
sisterlove (=

thought its supposed to be happy birthday ,
but i make it as happy children's day .

underwater world cupcake (:

famous amos cookie with one handmade card .

last of all ; sis , i hoped you like it !

2008-09-29T22:53:00.003+08:00

if i can speak beautifully and can sing like an angel , but don't love others .
i sound like a child banging on a piano or a screeching radio .
if i am very smart , almost a genius , if i can figure out the hardest math problems and understand sentence diagrams , but don't love others , i'm nothing.
love will stand in line and wait its turn . love looks for the good in others . love doesn't always want what others have, and it doesn't brag about what it does have . love is polite , even when the other person is rude . love doesn't always have to be first . love doesn't remember one reason after another to be hurt . love isn't happy when someone else fail but is happy with the truth . love will always protect other , especially those who are often picked on or teased . love always believes the best about others and is steady and true . love never give up . preaching will stop someday , so will speeches . knowledge will come to an end . today we only know part of what there is to know . we can preach and speak only with a small part of understanding , but when perfection comes then what is imperfect will go away .
i am now young and so i talk and speak like a child . when i become an adult , i will put childish ways behind me . now we see only a poor reflection , like in a mirrow , then we will see face-to-face . now i only know part of what there is to know , then i'll know fully and will be fully known .
and now these three remains:
FAITH, HOPE & LOVE.
but the greatest of these are love .

darling , i'm always outhere to support whatever you're doing ,
being my best to do well as your girlfriend ,
trying to behave myself whenever you're around or not .
last of all; darling , iloveyou . mwark !
24sept09 ` many love, kisses and hugs .

2008-09-16T23:09:00.007+08:00

thank to those humans who accompany me throughout the night at the pub ,
thank to those humans who take care of me when i'm dead drop , and
thank to those humans who gave me drink to cool down .
THANK YOU SO SO MUCH `
thank ben for the bkt treat and cabfare !
thank tommy for the money that you gave me !

hate plastic , faker and two-headed snake !
FFFFUUUUCCCCKKKKKKKK OOOOOFFFFF ~
curse you to death `

darling , you got twenty-two more days to enjoy .
how i wish time will stop at this moment ?
remember what you gonna do when you enter there kkk .
i gonna miss you (:
MANY LOVE TO YOU TOO <,3

34 days ; i'm hoping for more days to come by (=
with many many love

2008-09-15T02:49:00.002+08:00

life is full of ups and downs .
problems are coming up one by one .
is piling like a mountain .
i have to overcome every obstacles .
couldn't imagine humans are so realistic at times .
couldn't imagine humans are stabbing behind you .
i shall see how long these things will last ?
good luck to everyone (:

2008-08-27T08:02:00.004+08:00

this is the hardest story that i've ever told .
no hope , or love , or glory ,
happy endings gone forever more ,
i feel as if i'm wasting and i'm wasting everyday ,
this is the way you left me i'm not pretending ,
no hope , no love , no glory , no happy ending .
this is the way that we love like it's forever ,
then live the rest of our life but not together .
babylove, i hope to be there but i'm sorry ,
please come back to me if possible ,
but i know is impossible as you've gone to heaven .
i'm sorry baby ! i love you <,3

2008-08-22T22:28:00.002+08:00

no surprise , no heart , no care .
it just ended like these ,
i'm so afraid to loss my close ones now .
will things turn out sour as time goes by ?
mixue told me that i'm always feeling this way :
"inside; bleeding , outside; smiling"

my innocent :
i'm so sorry that i dint take great care of you ,
hoped you don't blame me , i love you .
i'll helped you to fight to take revenge .
please come into my dream once again .
i'm missing you days and nights .

2008-08-08T05:22:00.002+08:00

got myself with another small little cousin babyboy .
LOVELOVE *

always trying my best to treat everyone equally ,
but things turn out to be unexpected ,
disappointment is what i always got .
is hard being myself ):
or should i say i'm mend to be treated this way ?
i'm sorry for being sensitive or should i say selfish ?

2008-08-04T23:58:00.005+08:00

met up with my superglue at toapayoh ,
finally , after so long , i get to go out with my superglue .
i miss the times being with her (: superglue , lets start our party soon k ?
headed down to ps with her and korkor .
had our early dinner at food juction .
laling , joshua & joel joined us too .
watched THE MUMMY again with superglue , joel , joanne & alven .
while laling , korkor & joshua accompany laling to do her work (:
last of all , joel; i hope u pass ur TP for tmr . BEST WISHES *

sunday; 3aug
had a small gathering at big uncle's place in the afternoon .
some left early , some stayed till night time .
and when i woke up , some of them have left . HAHAHA (:
i miss my small little cousin; glenn ! so cute `
ate and prepared ourselves.
cabbed down to bishan with chris , esther & aunti .
supposed to have our k-singing , but ended up went to watch THE MUMMY .

rated : 3.5 out of 5 popcorns .

to some idiotic ;
stop saying things in ur blog ,
i cant give a fucking a damn to you all .
since you like it , write as many as poossible .
takecare fucktard !

to NORAMIE ;
i'm sorry for that decision , i hoped you're alright by now .
i hoped you understand too . i got no choice . sorry ):
lets fate bring us back one day ?
or did i make the right decision ?
i'm feeling so lost .
take care of urself , no matter where you are .

*should i go back or shouldnt ?
please let me think abt it & i'll get back to you guys soon .
i'm sorry for the delay answer !*

2008-07-31T16:54:00.004+08:00

boyf is so sweet ,
gave me a surprise by appearing at the door .
bought nice foods for me too , but i insisted of sleeping back ,
poor him , have to use the com n let me sleep .
his home-leave had wasted just like that . sorry syg (:
im gonna wait for ur next home leave ,
a promise to you that i'll accompany ya out . much love .

thank sis , for keep changing my template for me .
this two also not bad la , but i still perfer my current template .
thankyou so much . LOVE *

my beloved gwen sis ,
i just pray hard everythings will be fine to you ,
hoped u'll learn your lesson & change over a new leaf .
i'm feeling so stupid to be the last person to know everythings ,
whatever isnt , i cant do anything now , but to pray for you .
take care , misses *

2008-07-27T04:59:00.002+08:00

it's the excuses that are not acceptable .
i'm sorry ):
.
.
.
.
.
.
how am i gonna get rid of these ,
sayang i'm so lonely all the time;
whether you're in hostel or outside .
everywhere i go i get so frustrated ,
you're the only one that's on my mind .
i'm sorry for throwing all my stupid attitude/temper at you .

2008-07-25T06:21:00.010+08:00

i admit i do have many bffs around me .
yet one of my closest one;
caring , cherishing & loving each other after so many incidents .
is you ; JACQUELINE WONG .
being with me days & nights ,
being with me years , months , weeks & days ,
partying and slacking non-stop ,
doing nonsense & behaving like a fool outside ,
acting as if we know many peoples ,
shopping like a mad queen ,
gossiping like a o-ba-san ,
sticking to each other like a superglue .
thought now , u got a family to take care of ;
but our heart & daily-chatting wont make us apart ,
a promise to you and me :)
anything , u still able to count on me ! sisterlylove *

14years & i'm still counting .

JORDAN ONG ;
YOUR PRECIOUS SON , MINE PRECIOUS GODSON .

another bff;
a sister/laling of mine ,
knowing her for years;
yet we get close to each other for like months,
and i'm still counting . no one would apart us .
a beautiful , caring , loving girl ;
who stay by my side days & nights when i'm down ,
sending me so many textes & giving me candy to cheer me up (:
tolerate all my nonsense & attitude .
is you ; JULIE SIM ! lalinglove *

last but not least;
the one who able to read thru what am thinking,
the one who unable to lie to ,
the one who love to disturb me ,
the one who take care of me just like a small sister ,
the one who helped , teaches , giving advises & protect me ,
the one who used to be a ahbeng & have changed .
is you; XIAOLONG KORKOR .
here i go ;
korkor , korkor,
i know i know why you always escape from girls when u're in the club .
HAHAHAHA (:

2008-07-22T04:25:00.001+08:00

when u have to look away
when u don't have much to say
that's when i love u
i love u just that way
to here u stumble when u speak
or see u walk with two left feet
that's when i love you
i love u endlessly
and when your mad cause u lost the game
forget i'm waiting in the rain
sayang i love u
i love u anyway

2008-07-20T18:41:00.003+08:00

went down to visit him with his parent .
heart pain to see him getting skinner and skinner .
i hope he'll change over a new leaf and no more turning back .
please behaviour yourself and listen to them .
times pass fast , you'll be out soon .
im waiting for the next visiting .
im waiting for your letter .
mohammad.norazmie , i love you .

2008-07-16T11:29:00.003+08:00

good things don't stay forever ,
happy memories are only mend to keep it .
one year eight months ,
i gave you my trust & love , u took it for granted .
after so long , u wanna salvage it , i'm sorry ,
i cant bring myself to trust you again .
all that it has been said and done ,
boy , i really have to leave .
no matter how much i still love you ,
i still have to let go , holding on couldn't do good on us .
i hoped you do understand , i'm losing faith and hope on you .
goodbye to once my lover .

me and korkor

anyone wanna be a sweetie to buy me a minnie mouse ?

laling , korkor and me
LOVES <,3

laling , jonathan and me .
don't point middle finger ley , so gangster !

LALING , thank for being by my side days & nights ,
giving me so many support just to get out of those darkness
playing and partying with me , no matter how tired you are ,
trying your best to cheer me up when im down ,
sharing so many things with me too (:
girl , thankyou so much .
not forgetting ; XIAOLONG KOR ,
thanks for those days & nights , making fool of urself ,
trying to give in to me , accompanying me no matter how tired you are ,
helping & giving me so many advises .
last of all ; JOSHUA ,
happy belated birthday to you ,
hoped you liked the little surprise that julie n i did
thanks so much for all those nicenice foods that u treat
& thank for always sending me back home .
afterall, hoped u did enjoy urself when we're out tgth .
& hoped u able to get fishball soon . LOL (:
MUCH LOVE to the three of you ! <,33333

to some moron ;

i doesnt know what's the prob with you guys ,

but i doesn't want to bother abt you guys too ,

please just kindly pay up what you suppose to ,

stop hanging round & start telling so many lies ,

thank you so much !

2008-07-08T02:53:00.014+08:00

is always nice to have many friends around you ,

is always nice to know many friends around you ,

is always nice to be friends with strangers too .

when things start to happen ,

all your friends couldn't be by ur side ,

they'll just disappear from you ,

and start to backstab you like nobody's business,

and they'll just make friends with ur enemy too .

isn't it sound scary ?

(i just hope bff wont treat me this way?)

........................................................................................................

sometimes, i hope i know nothing about you ,

sometimes, i just feel like disappear in this world

and don't see you again , but i just can't do it .

sometimes , i hoped u'll be there when i need you so much .

will you still be there if i miss it ?

seriously , what will your answer be like ?

and what will be my answer to you too .

i'm still wondering ...

i'm so afraid of everythings now,

i'm sorry ):

................................................................................................................

thank joshua for all the good foods &etc .

having fun with laling , xiaolong kor , joshua & johnathan .

partying days & nights occassionally .

lack of sleep causes most of us to fall sick .

take care humans of all ages too(sound familiar?) (:

something is going to let me step out sooner or later !

is just a matter of time, i'm sorry ):

i just can't help it thought i'm feeling painful .

2008-06-29T23:55:00.000+08:00

outing and partying with laling & xiaolong bro was fun !
met up with them at cine as bro was alone ,
it was so unbelievable that he'll be alone at town .
so rushed down and checked out whether isnt true ,
and the truth is he's really ALONE ! poor him .
saw many familiar faces at cine too , but i gave those cant-be-bother-attitude.
and bro dressed so smart & he wanted to go home ,
but he couldn't escape from us & went to mos tgth .
there's fights after the whole party .
1st round; malay & malay ,
2nd round; malay & ang mo ! cool right ?
busy polices have to stop them like hell ~
headed to prata hse for early breakfast .
back to bro's place to get change than laling & mine !
went down to clarke quay to meet up with joshua & yuyan ,
they had their photoshoot , didn't help out at all ,
as i'm freaking moody & exhausted .
i'm sorry laling & bro for throwing attitude .
headed down to hk cafe for dinner & yuyan left for work .
cabbed home after one and a half day of not sleeping .
fell asleep on the computer table while using half way,
can prove that i'm freaking tired .
my flu & cough have not recover after two weeks .
somebody please help me cured my sickness for me ?

two years & is just two years .
isn't short nor long .
but i'm trying hard to give a try ,
but someone is pulling it apart ,
i'm sorry , i couldn't help but to say it out.
i just hope u're all right in there ,
please tolerate & don't find trouble .
i'm out here to pray for your every things .
i still missing all the good things u've done .
take care !

2008-06-24T06:59:00.004+08:00

sunday;
overnight at mokky's hse with laling , edward & zin after mos .
had our wonderful cha mee , cooked by mokky . thank ((:
morning , cabbed over to prata house for breakfast with laling ,
chit-chatted & cabbed back home to have some family gathering .
aunti cooked mee rebus , but mine was special, as i dont eat yellow mee .
evening time , accompany aunti to chinatown for retail therapy .
dint get anything , had dessert for dinner as im still pretty full .
bused down to cck to look for laling , supposed to had our kbox session ,
but realised that lot1 kbox have moved, so we bought martell back & drink
monday;
headed down amk to have our kbox session .
sang for six hours , two drinks for each & refill tibits just $26/person .
met xiaolong`kor & jonathan at prata house after that for supper .
sorry for keep you two waiting :D
discussed where to go on wed , as i doesnt have the mood to club .
& a BIG APOLOGISE to ashley that i put aeroplane again .
promised that i'll accompany ya the next time round (:
&& azmi , sorry that i couldnt help you in any ways .
hoped u're all right inside . please promised me ,
when u're out , dont do it again . MISSES .

2008-06-21T06:46:00.003+08:00

met up with felicia & azrul at town ,
im superb late as i've to wait for that late king; azmi !
YES , is AZMI not AZZIM , i dint spell wrongly ,
as some idiot keep mistaken . BODOH !
bused down tgth with him & his friends .
aparted with him & went over to paragon to find fel & azrul .
slacked awhile & walked over to cine to meet up with eddy .
ate & waited for ashley to come over to look for me (:
aparted with eddy & off to bq with ashley .
pub hopping with ashley&co .
SHE KEEP THROW ME ALONE LOH !!
& said that she'll be back in like 5min time ,
ended up DISAPPEARED , IDIOT !
went over to restroom & looked for ade .
HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY TO ADE ! LOVES *
slacked over there & waited for laling & edward to come .
alright , im superb high & keep disturbing people .
after that , went back to find ashley & off to coffeeshop to eat .
THANK AH , KEEP SCOLDING ME ! I ~~LOVE~~ HATE YOU LA ~
SHIT THINGS happen too .
homesweethome after that (:

LALING , sorry for keep throwing ya alone.

2008-06-20T02:14:00.003+08:00

firstly;
aaron is out after so long than i realize it .
dumbdumb me ! seriously , i miss her so much .
gave her a superb big hug when i saw her (:
hoped she'll change to become a better person ! missed :D

secondly;
gwen sis , im gonna pray hard for ya ,
hope everythings will be fine k ?
please change over a new leaf once everything is solve .

thirdly;
i've been sticking to my beloved laling for like eleven days,
& we're still counting yea .
club , drink , movie , shisha & everythings , we gonna do it tgth !
never forget abt our xiao qin ge that make us fall asleep too . LOVES .

fourth ;
kiwi will be leaving s'pore in like less than six hours .
im gonna miss all his craps !
rmber to buy me more kiwi & strawberry back . LOLOL .
enjoyed ur trip (:

fifth ;
i hate you , YES LA , is you !
goodbye ~

2008-06-16T03:52:00.002+08:00

9june, mon ;
kungfu panda with laling & edward at bugis . funny show .
prata house after that with xiaolongkor , garbriel , joshua & jonathan .

10june, tue ;
met up with laling & edward again .
slacked at bugis mac till two plus .
edward was insane over his betting of soccer match .

11june, wed ;
went shisha with laling , tk , kw & bernard at arab st .
ordered honeydew & followed by mixed fruit .
the food over there was yummy-licious !
aparted with them & left to mos with laling ,
packed with some so-called first timer clubber ! ARGH ~
overnight at her place after mos . thank her friend sending us back .

12june, thur ;
two hours of sleep & off to our pcshow at suntec .
my jobscope was to distribe flyer ,
collect flyer from other company & throw it in the bin !
slacking is part of my job too .
thank kw & bernard for slacking with me when im bored .
party in night , celebrated azrul's advance bday .
five drunkard in total . gave me such a headache !
and , i'll never forget that drunkard that slap my FACE .
thank ah .

13june, fri ;
three hours of sleep & off to work again .
slacked , eat and puffed .
night ; went to OCH with laling , tk , kw , ber , norman & dont-know-what-name .
floor full of broken glasses , woods & wall full of painted pic & name .
scared myself once before going in . LOL `
overnight at laling's hse again .

14june, sat ;
overslept & cabbed to work .
tired lor , keep yawning non-stop .
but never failed , we still party in the night (:
left to bq after that , thank gabriel from sending me down .

15june, sun ;
overslept & cabbed to work again .
start work at one as im superb late .
is last day of the pc show , was crowded with ants .
& i almost slacking more than i worked today !
slackd at starbuck coffee with laling , kw & bernard after work .
& homesweethome at eleven plus .
im so tired right now , turning in soon .

p/s: sorry sorry for this long post .
so wordy ~ no pic ! sorry ~ ENJOY `

2008-06-10T04:24:00.007+08:00

i'm blessed to have all my lovely friends around me .
never failed to give me advises & courages pulling me out of those darkness .
never failed to call/text me , asking whether i'm fine (:
never failed to cheered me up when i'm down .
never failed to be there for me whenever i need them .
never failed to act like a clown to make me happy .
never failed to bring me out when i'm upset .
thank you people esp laling . muchlove .

no happy ending , it's just seem to be so silent .
it dont seem to be the way , how it's supposed to be .
&& FINALLY , i'm moving on .
i couldn't care what's happening around you anymore
the last present and thing i'll give you is that . this is OVER .

looking for someone who don't pretend & lies,,

2008-06-03T04:01:00.002+08:00

you'll never change for god sake .
i cannot believe why i even believe you in the first place .
fool me once , shame on you .
fool me twice , shame on me .
fuck you !

2008-05-29T18:04:00.002+08:00

exhausted exhausted exhausted !

mon; 26may :
skipped lesson,
evening time met up with azzim , chit-chatted & slacked .

tue; 27may :
met with syaidah & her bf for some chit-chat session (:

wed; 28may :
attended sch , sakae sushi treat from lecturer !
thank thank <333
lesson ended & went to meet up with jul ,
movie ; sex&thecity @ great world city .
phuture after movie . fun night (:
had my fringe cut too . byebye to my long fringe .
i hope i'll loveyou more by 0.5% as each day passby ,
i hope i dont hurt you anymore ?

sis & me . loves*

bro wanna act cute but FAILED !
LOLS ~

nice movie , rated 4/5 .

2008-05-25T06:55:00.006+08:00

fri , 23may ;

met up with laling at town ,

walked around & watched chocolate .

was a funny & violet movie , rated 4.5 out of 5 pop corns.

those who have not watch , was recommended to watch (:

cabbed down to mos to meet up with alan&co .

was super duper packed with smelly&tiko guys . LOLS .

homesweethome at 5oclock .

sat, 24may ;

skipped sch , met up with bao & ver at wdl .

headed down to celebrate birthday celebration .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JESMINE & MABEL !

ate a little bit , as im shy . HAHAHA (:

foods not bad , left at around nine plus .

trained down to cine to meet up with fel , azrul & sugardaddy .

saw victor & fabien . they talked lots of crap ~

supposed to watch movie but ended up ...

cabbed down to mos to meet up with xiaolong kor & co .

drink drank drunk ~ im superb high alright `

maybe numb-ing myself from liquor will only stop me from thinking .

left at around three plus as fel & azrul came down to look for me .

slacked & things happen again ! FUCK IT *

somehow i hate myself la . URGH .

im super duper stress ! fuck fuck fuck .

homesweethome at six (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO AHPIT SUGARDADDY !

learnt to behave urself , you no longer a small kid .

fight no more please `

thanks for being my listener & kaopei-ing you all the times .

take care & see you soon c(:

*try ur luck to find me if u're looking for me . bye :(

2008-05-24T06:42:00.001+08:00

counted myself lucky or unlucky ?
counted myself blissful or inclusively ?
counted myself good or bad ?
should i be happy or sad ?
should i cry or laugh ?
should i just continue or runaway from reality ?

questions have been up in mind all these while !
i dont know who to share with .
or perhaps i dont wish to share with anyone ,
cause it would make others think that im irritating .
im starting to hate to be loved ):
ciaos ~

2008-05-22T05:43:00.003+08:00

met up with jul at bugis ,
shopped & bought her ds lite .
wanted to get shoes , but dint see any nice want .
urgh ~ headed down to cine , slacked & met up with fabien & victor for awhile .
cabbed down to phuture to get stamped ,
cabbed down to some pub at serangoon .
i think my drinking stamina have improved ? (:
dint got drank , chit-chatted with alan&co .
cabbed back to phuture to met up with ahpui & ahkia ,
dint expected that ahkia know how to shuffle . LOLS .
went off at two with them , as it was too crowded .
jul got insane with them by speaking hokkien .
laugh my arse off ~ cabbed down to mos & they headed to bq .
thanks ahkia & ahpui for the cabfare & drinks .
it wasnt my day of clubbing ,
both legs got sour after awhile , stomach pain like hell ~
somebody please help me !!
movie & mos on fri with jul again !
anyone wanna join us ? HAHAHAHA (:
homesweethome at five .

2008-05-18T05:46:00.001+08:00

went to visit vivian at mt alvernia ,
can see that she was still feeling weak ,
hope u'll be fine once u discharge , wanna see my godson ! (:
waited for an hour for them to arrive till i got so pissed off ,
so intent to cab down to tanjong pagar to find bao&ver ,
change planned as they called & asked to meet at lavendar food court .
ate frogleg porridge , siew man & hagiao . shared with jul .
rided down to mbar to find ver&bao as they needed to go off to celebrate friend's bday .
this is my first time in my life , seating bike & i hold the gastank so tightly .
so can u image , how dangerous this rider is ?
thank god, i dint flew off ~ LOLS (:
is just a random post ! im so bored`
my gastric is still hurting me badly ~

i fucking loveyou (:

2008-05-17T06:39:00.002+08:00

met up with jiabao at kk hospital as she wanna go for body checkup .
supposedly to go n visit vivian ,
but she was too exhausted , so just leave the visiting later (:
went back her place as she wanna change .
drove down to zouk , dint went in .
hopped to mos as he asked .
laling joined us too , im sorry to throw ya alone at zouk previously .
hope u're not angry .
saw xiaolong bro at mos entrance ,
it's his birthday & i've forget it !
drink drank drunk ~

HAPPY 25th BIRTHDAY TO XIAOLONG BRO !
hope u did enjoy urself in mos with ur bro & friends (:
last but not least , i hope u able to find ur ms right soon !
take care of urself `

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY TO XIANLANG !
one year older alrdy , pls behave urself yea ?
wanna club , ask me along . officially able to go in legally .
hahahaha (: see ya soon !

2008-05-11T22:07:00.002+08:00

met up with ver , bao, keh , kiat , weilin & pauline .
went down to irumours to celebrate bao's advance bday (:
total 3bottles of martel & 1bottle of chivas .
supposed to head down mos with fel & azrul ,
but that bouncer of mos doesnt want to let me in cause im half-drunk .
so headed down to tanjong pagar with ver .
played , camwhored & drink ~ so fun !
hongtat & eddie were high . LOLS (:
went back to irumours to continue .
met up with fel&co after her mos .
thank azrul for sending me back `

me & jiabao (:
her face so white , so scary . LOLS `

me & veron (:

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY !

2008-05-08T22:15:00.004+08:00

*photographer of the day ; FABIEN !

met up with laling , fabien , fai & victor at town .
slacked all the way ; chit-chat , cam-whored & etc .
fabien , fai & victor aparted from us , ade came down to join us .
had our dinner & headed down to clarke quay .
partly the shop at central mall were closed ,
couldnt do any shopping at all .
so slacked along the river , talk nonsense & headed down to mos .
fel , bao, ahpit , adam, irwan , eena , asrul came too (:
it wasnt crowded at all , had a fun night with you peoples .
homesweethome at seven-thirty am .

second warning is here ,

im superb stress , somebody pls help me !!!

URGH ~ gonna settle it real soon . FAINT *

2008-05-07T04:56:00.006+08:00

just a ring from you ,
telling me that u ran out of camp to meet ur friends,
i knew u prioritise ur friend first , so what am i to you ?
alrights , i just simply hate this feeling .

went down to tanjong pagar with ver as she needed to work ,
so i slacked , chit-chat , eat & drink with the rest .
thereafter , jiabao came down .
as usual , chit-chat with those lovely girls ,
they're still as sweet as ever , asking me to go back to work .
bullied eddy all the way , he so irritating . asshole ~
supposedly to go airport with shawn ,
but he ran off so fast , lonely him , gonna wait there till heaven !
bao sent me home after that (:
what a bad day ;
forgotten to bring my wallet out & quarrelled with edison bro .
headache ah ! URGH ~

the heart cover with feather .
will his heart cover with feather too ?

after one month , cousin is back from taiwan training .
miss all his craps & him .
but baddie him , dint buy anything for me ):
hahahaha (: least , he gave me a pkt of cig .
taste not bad . woohoo ~

taiwan cig .

so long , like virgina slim .

the end part of the cig is a heart shape , so cute (:

mos tonight , anyone ?

2008-05-05T04:17:00.001+08:00

nobody wants to be alone .
nobody wants to cry .

BUT ..

im alone right now , crying so much .
questions have been upon up in my mind ,
im tired but couldnt get to sleep at all )':
im feeling so SAD & DISHEARTED !
asking myself the whole day: "will u forgive me for what i've done ?"
or am i going to say:" goodbye my love ?"
what will the outcome be ? im still wondering ~

katherine told me this when im seeking for advise ;
SEE, that's the thing abt 2nd chances .
it's two person that are there for each other &
support & care abt each other no matter how much they want to deny it .
it's abt one person doing everything they can to make sure the other doesn't fall & vice-versa .
2nd chances are abt holding onto that person's hand no matter how hard they beg to let go .
will you leave me just like this ?
im truly in love with you <,33333 .
im sorry my dear ~